I loved him long before he loved me. I never thought my chances of being married to him we're great, but as a girl in high school my prayers consistently contained the phrase, "And please bless me that I will marry someone like Eric Salway." ( no lie.) He was dreamy, handsome, funny, smart, witty, driven, kind, strong, caring; but these were only qualities that I admired from afar. There was no way I could be anything that he was looking for. But then I gained some confidence and chased him to Provo and somehow tricked him into seeing that I was exactly the one he needed to marry and the rest is history. And these are important facts about our history because they lead me to where my thoughts are today.
This may be a silly tangent I'm about to go on, but it's necessary for me to be able to explain something about my relationship with Eric. When we had been engaged for a total of 4 days, Eric had to take me to the emergency room and I ended up needing surgery. When I see pictures of how I looked in the hospital, I wonder why he didn't yank that ring off of my finger and run away. He actually did quite the opposite. I was really out of it with the pain medication and all of that, but every memory I have of the hospital and recovery are of him right next to me, holding my hand, looking at me, asking what I needed, comforting me.
Fast forward to our wedding day. I was a bucket of nerves on the way to the temple. My mom said she had never seen me so nervous before and she was probably right! I don't think I had ever been so scared. She asked me if I was having second thoughts and I told her that I just needed to see Eric and I would be fine. And I was! He held my shaking hands and smiled at me and the world was right again! That is how our relationship has been for me. He provides me constant love and assurance.
Now that we have 3 kids with a 4th on the way any day now, I am amazed at the patience and love and sympathy he provides for me. As my 8 year old put it-- since I've been on bed rest he's had to be the mom and the dad. It's completely true. It's not fair that he has to step up and do all of this, but he doesn't complain. In fact, I feel like he does a better job than I do! It's love, I tell you. Unconditional. And in his business of stepping up to take both of the parental roles, he still finds plenty of time to rub my back, and hold my hand, and tell me I'm beautiful. He lets me know it's okay.
It makes me reflect on my days as a teenager, praying to marry someone like him. Even then, I don't think I imagined how great of a man he was. I am left feeling very blessed. Blessed that my prayers were answered and blessed that Eric chose me just like I chose him. Feeling this way today caused me to realize I have to write these things down. Sometimes in the craziness of the days I forget how lucky I am. I forget how badly I wanted to be married to this man and I forget how glad I am that he still loves me after these 10 years. I need to write these things down so that I can remember how much we need each other. Or at least how much I need him. Especially now. I don't know what I did to deserve this guy, but I will be forever thankful that when I prayed to marry someone like Eric Salway, Heavenly Father gave me the real thing instead.























